StephenDouglas

December 9, 2009

I just want a little girl with ratty hair,
who I can hurt and I can save.
Who’s love drunk and loves drugs,
whose too bent to be so brave.

Just found that when looking through an old journal today. I don’t remember being so eloquent, or forward, even with myself. I suppose it’s true, or true of me 5 years ago.

Today’s another grey, rainy day. I’ve been listening to nothing but Cloud Cult and The ost Serene Republic lately. CORRECTION: Except when driving. I insist on blaring Billy Idol while I drive through Bed-Stuy.

Having a car in the city is absolutely amazing. No longer have I had to stomach the freezing cold surging through my bones. Hop in, start it up, and go. It’ll be tough to go back to the walking commute to school after break.

Speaking of which; break! One more week. A million things to be completed, most not to the expectations. No sense stressing. Breathe. In. Out.

Mitch Ryan will be paying this grey old city a visit next weekend, we have our annual visit to Dallas BBQ and the tree at Rockafeller that weekend too.

In general, things are acceptable. I’m a bit chilly, and a bit tired so I may take a nap. Working every night, and rewarding myself maybe too frequently with trips to the bar.

For now, that’ll do.

I’m growing more and more sick of this neighborhood. There’s so much room for attitudes to change, for people to just exist together, but it just isn’t happening yet.

After heading out from the bar after a few drinks, a man on the street shoved me and dropped his bag. In it was a bottle which broke. He expected me to pay for it, and this is the second time he’s done this same routine to me. I refused. So he pushed me against a car and said he was going to fight me, over and over. Finally, my friend gave him a few more dollars, and he went away.

This time I called the police, like that would do anything. I ended up having to deal with them until 3:30 AM. Nothing will happen. These things won’t stop. The world will keep on turning.

What a damper on what was turning out to be a good week. I hope something great happens today, and I forget all about being accosted, again.

Back Again

Wow, it’s been a long time!!

Here it is, December. Winter winds are sweeping around Brooklyn, and this semester is winding down. That means everyone here at Pratt is scampering around trying to wrap everything up, myself included.

I have my first day of a three day shoot on my video final this Saturday, and am pretty excited about it! We’re going to be using a Letus adapter, my first time using one! Other than that, school is just a whirlwind of work during these final three weeks before Winter break. I can’t stop thinking or looking forward to getting out of the city again, and not having to think about work for at least a little while. Breaks are good.

I think I’m going to have to start carrying my journal around again, i am beginning to miss writing, yet another reason I re-opened this blog.

I’ll have to be more diligent with posting now as interesting things happen!

My boss just left for fifteen days vacation. I’m left to my own devices in the Equipment office. I’m thinking about making a film that just involves turning on and off all the lights in the office at different times. Should be interesting.

Well, the internship is going ok. I was really loving it, but now all I seem to do is train this girl Julia. She’s from Italy and doesn’t speak english well. It’s really frustrating trying to explain things to her because she cuts me off a lot before I finish speaking. I thought it may have been a language barrier problem at first, now I realize she is just stupid. Really, really stupid.

I don’t even want to go into it more than that because of how frustrating it is working with her.

I had a 3 1/2 day weekend which was nice. I didn’t do as much as I wanted, but I enjoyed it. Went to Red Hook to check out some of Liam’s paintings in a gallery, then got groceries at Fairways. It’s an insane, giant grocery store with everything imaginable. I think i may want to move to Red Hook come April. I like that area more and more lately.

I’ve been trying to think of places to take a weekend vacation to, but I just can’t figure out where I’d like to go! I have never been to Boston, but I don’t know anyone up there during the summer anyway. I also thought about other places up north. Maybe I’ll just pick up and go one weekend soon.

I’ve also been thinking it’s about time to start meeting some new people. Unfortunately, it’s tough to convince some of my friends to get out too, and I don’t want to do it alone. Plus it seems like everything costs something. Money is becoming quite the issue. I’m finally saving, and I want to keep it that way.